Second Chances and Big Changes

This is my second attempt at blogging. This first time around, I felt a little handicapped with the structure and vision Josh and I had created, since it was supposed to be "our blog," but I decided that I need a low-maintenance, purely "me" blog if it's going to go anywhere. Right now there's a bunch of changes in progress and I feel a need to document those changes somehow, in a semi-informal manner. And so here we go!

Random picture. This is Jax. I'm still in awe I have a little boy, not just a baby now. Proud mom moment lol!

So these big changes I'm talking all came about within the past few weeks, for the most part, and will get sorted our in the next few months, to change our lives for at least the next few years... Confused yet? Me too. Here's what's goin' on...

1) We're having our second baby!
This change came about... oh.... five months ago? But I only have a few more months 'til our little Lilian Eve is here, and I'm super scared for the 1 to 2 kid transition as a mom. She's due Oct 22nd so I have about 4 more months. With Jax I did the normal OB and hospital bit... But this time I'm having a midwife and a home birth. Crazy right? I'm so excited though! I'm going to give birth at my in-laws' house, actually, which is kinda weird but I think it'll work out nicely (and they agreed to it haha). In an effort to NOT spend a fortune on a little girl (though nearly impossible), I've gotten some material scraps and have been sewing little jumpers with matching head bows to fit over Jaxton's old onsies. That way I can basically use all the clothes we already have! So far I'm made two sets, though with the other HUGE changes going on (as you will see) I've slowed down being so productive in this arena.

This is the first dress/head thingy set I made.

2) We're moving!
This is the big change that hasn't quite figured itself out yet... So Josh and I have a house that we've lived in for just about 2 years now. We intended to stay in this house until we had too many kids to fit in it (there's 4 bedrooms so it'd be a while). However, after much prayer, Josh announced that he wanted to go get his Master's degree after he finishes up his Bachelor's in August... and that may include moving out of state. This wouldn't be a permanent move, and as soon as he'd be done with that degree we'd come back to Utah. Well so a couple of friend's in our ward have a contract at the local apartment complex that is expiring the beginning of August... So we decided that they can lease out our house while we're gone. The husband's going to go to grad school/medical school in 3 to 4 years to ideally the timing would work out with us being gone to get Josh's degree. So anywho, we're moving out of our house in about 3 weeks now. The issue is where we're moving then. For the time being, we're going to stay with Josh's parents, who live in the area, until we figure out where to go to school. Here's the hang up though, Josh's Master's is going to be in a different field of study than his Bachelor's, so he needs to complete prereqs, and out of state tuition is really expensive. So basically the plan is to apply to a ton of Property Manager positions around the country (near cities with school opportunities for Josh), accept the first acceptable position, move there, work for a year while Josh does prereqs and we get residency in that state, he'll apply for and attend grad school, then we're come back and Josh'll start his educational software company. Did you catch all that? So basically right now everything's on hold. And don't forget that I'm having a baby! So IDEALLY we'll find something local so I can continue with my midwife here and we can cut out that extra year for getting residency, OR Josh moves first and Jax and I follow after I have Lilian... Crazy right? I know. Needless to say we're praying a lot right now. But we know Heavenly Father wants us to do this move, we're just waiting for him to show us the next step in the plan...

Josh, on our way to his commencement ceremony.

3) ...

Ok well I guess there are actually only 2 major changes in the mix right now, but #2 is a really huge and complicated one! So I guess I feel like my life is only certain for 3 more weeks, then who knows. But I guess life is always like that to some extent. For me it's better if I just don't think about it and focus on things I can control... Like making banana muffins today for Jax... Or keeping my house clean... Best to just do that for now, the big stuff will figure itself out.