Three Days, A Little Helper, and Cherished Moments

I am now officially three days out from my due date, and needless to say I'm a little anxious to get things going. I had Jaxton 1 day before his due date, but this is my second and they'll only be 18 months apart so all logic says I should have this little bundle before Monday, which would be equivalent to when I had Jax. However, things aren't always logical. I'm doing really well physically considering, though my feet get tired quick. I'm having this baby at home with a midwife and couldn't be more excited. I had Jax at the hospital with an OB and well... the experience was not fabulous. Each morning now I pray to go into labor that day, but each night I pray for labor to wait until morning. My poor mom and stepdad constantly await a call from me telling them it's time to get into the car and come up here. Hopefully I can make that call soon.

In the past month or so, Jaxton has become my little helper. He helps put shoes away in the shoe rack. He "helps" unload and close up the dish washer. He helps clean up his toys. He helps get himself dressed. He helps me assemble IKEA furniture.  He helps me get a walk every day. He helps me smile throughout the day. Mainly he helps me stay sane and keeps my mind off of labor and awaiting the arrival of his little sister.

The past month awaiting Lilian I've made sure to cherish special moments with Jaxton. This is the last month it's just going to be us two during the day. He's going to be a big brother. I'm going to be the mom of childREN. We're both growing up. It's crazy exciting but it also makes you slow down a bit. I've been trying to pay extra attention to our bonding moments and his developments. Not saying I won't do that later too but it will never be easier than now. Slowing down and appreciating those moments really make me appreciate my life and that fact that I'm so involved in this amazing little boy's life. I'm so blessed to be given the opportunity to be his mother, and so grateful to bear the responsibility of bringing his little sister into the world.

I Am SO Over It

So you know that really awkward last stage of pregnancy? Well I'm in it. You know, where none of your maternity clothes fit, but you don't buy more because you'll only be this huge for another few weeks. You oh-so-carefully roll over in bed for fear of pulling a ligament in your giant abdomen.  Every time there's stormy weather in the forecast you think, "Hey maybe I'll go into labor!" You barely manage to bend down, which makes life tricky when you also have a toddler or other kids running around. Every time you have a contraction you pray it's progressing you. Ya, you know what I'm talking about. That's where I'm at, and I'm over it.

On Monday I'll be 38 weeks along. Jax and Lilian are going to be about 18 months apart. Also we believe I have an irritable uterus this time around (tons of fun contractions that do NOTHING). I've been pretty active this pregnancy so all the factors point to me not going to my due date. Though at the beginning of pregnancy I was still expecting to go to due date because I had Jax 3 hours before his due date and both of my grandmothers basically had all their children on their due dates. I was totally fine with it until I finished my crazy sewing projects... and then got to this awkward stage... blah.

Last Saturday I had a false labor because of the combination between my irritable uterus (isn't that such a great term lol) and the cervix softener my midwife put me on. After we realized it was false labor I've been doing my darndest to NOT think about labor or when the baby will come. Sure, I got a calling at church that I feel WAY under-qualified for and therefore have to dedicate a bunch of time to everyday (Relief Society pianist), and that helps, but I still keep thinking, "Hey it's getting close to the weekend, which would be great if I went into labor now because Josh wouldn't need to take time off work!" I guess I'll just try to be patient (never one of my strong points, need I mention) and keep trying to distract myself... Any suggestions?